Syafiqah.h-

2010-11-21T12:33:00.002+08:00

life's been AMAZING! with everything going smoothly with WF and beloved girlfriend (; what more can i ask for? oh, just abit more freedom (; HAHA!

at one point of time, everything seems messed up, like what am i living for? now i realised, i'm hanging on during a difficult period to achieve something like what i have currently. but then again, life's a circle. sometimes, you're on top of the circle, feeling like you're on top of the world, having everything going on perfectly for you. and the next time, you're at the bottom of the peak, where everything seems to go wrong, and that you just wna get squashed at the bottom and not continue the circle. we'll never know when that time will come. so chin up baybehh!

Boboy is probably snoring at this moment. i've been leaving her at nights and sleep on my own. daaaamn. tonight, i'm gna sleep with her, please. body clock, please hang on to her timing. it's gna be tough, but we're gna make it ;) we always did :P HAHA!

tomorrow, WF's gna start our soccer training for NW-futsal challenge. Boboy's entering in another team, with HF and few others. we're gna compete in court, and Boboy is definitely not gna give me some face. and i sure hope i'd do the same. it's a tournament anyway. but then again, out of the 6 WF that's entering, i'm the worst. so what have i got to lose? HAHA! hope we'd play our best and no matter what's the outcome gna be, at least we'll leave the place with fun, excitement and experience (:

i miss WH so much, but baby, you're gna have to be the dominant one and ask me out :P come on, imma girl. give me some face and ask me out. HAHAHAHA! i miss you so much! it's sad that WC is living up to its name anymore but it's okay, we both have other things to do (:

thing's been going great with girlfriend. although i think i messed up one too many times that she nearly gave up. but she decided to hang on and give me another chance (: and for that, i'm grateful and i'm gna treasure this chance alot because it might be my last (:

okay, i wna go blog @ tumblr while waiting for the girlfriend to wake up! GAAAAHHH! she's not gna wake up any soon i guess? hmph! HAHA! so yeah, will blog again when i feel like it.

The Birthday Surprise

2010-10-17T09:16:00.009+08:00

to make this surprise happen, i've already planned it a week or two in advance. had to thank mat for helping me out with the cake and all. so on the 14th, i lied one too many times to Boboy. hahahha! at a point of time, i think she was pissed at me because she dint reply my texts. so all the way from Bugis to Jurong West, i was letting out my sadness and worries to Mat, Future and Tykoz. they kept assuring me everything's gna be fine but at the same time teased me. GRR. aaaaaand, they kept scaring me because it was on a Thursday Night, and i'm at Jurong West, where something happened few months back, and i'm all alone! scaaaary. so anw..

14th, i met up with Future at IKEA. bought candles, cliche. but i don't care. PFFT. then we board the shuttle bus to Bedok, which took fcuking 30mins or so to move off from Giant. i swear we wanted to smack the driver's forehead. grr. the bus finally left, and we reached City Hall on time. somehow somewhere, thanks to the driver also, else we're gna be early. HAHAHA! Tykoz was late. BUDAK JURONG WEST! hahahahahah! but only a few minutes late though. then we walked around to kill time, before heading to Bugis to eat at Tong Seng. maaaaaybe, i was very nervous about tonight that i couldn't eat properly. heh. collected cake, and fetched Mat. she was very surprised to see Tykoz and Future behind me. aaaaaand, the one who got hurled with vulgarities was no other than yours truly :( sadness. HAHAHAHAHA! so anw, walked all the way to a veryvery far 190 bustop. kept whining i was late because Boboy was already not replying to my texts :( anyhoo, from BP, me and Tykoz cabbed to Jurong West, which reminds me, i owe him 10bucks for cab fare. ISH.

i climbed 6 storeys just so Boboy won't be able to listen to the lift. Boboy accompanied me all the way, and i lied again. i lied just too many times that day. HEH. so we talked. at 11.40pm, she decided to take a bathe. WTH?! aaaaand for the few months i've known her, she's not a fast bathe-r. HAHAHAHA! but she really wna bathe, to smell good on her birthday night i think? HAHAHAHAH! so while she bathes, i set up everything. 21♥ and i swear i heard just too many unwanted noises. EEEEE~ i actually recited some prayers okay! HAHAHA! at 11.55pm, kept calling her. panicked when she dint answer. grr. she answered at 11.58pm, and i asked her to read my blog, but she dint want to. so i had to ask her to just go out. she insisted, but made it 12am on the dot ;D

her reaction upon seeing the cake wasn't fun. PFFT. i expected like girl-covering-mouth-gasping. but then again, only girls do that. and nope, her girly image wasn't shown that night. BORING~ hahahahha! our night wasn't as smooth as expected, it was bad, for me mostly :P no one has ever seen me in that state. GRR. but so anw, we talked things out. it got better after that ;)

in the morning, i had a super hard time asking her to bathe and get ready. told her i reserved a place at 1pm. we were an hour late from meeting Future and Eerah. SADNESS. i saw them from afar, so i ran towards them. Boboy was behind, walking very slowly because she saw them too, and to see her smile like that, i felt good. HEH. her expression was like.. WTH-are-you-guys-doing-here kinda thing, but she kept saying she expected them to be there. because these two smarticles let the cat out of the bag unknowingly. GRR. hahahaha! but it was great (;
cabbed to Angsana, and we panicked because upon reaching, we were arguing who said there was bowling there. HAHAHA! it was classic when Future asked the cabby whether there was Bowling @ Angsana and at the same time, we saw the Bowling Pin model. HEHEHE! so anw, we searched for FOOD! tu penting! decided to settle down at IMANO's CAFE. aaaaand, i should just stick to western food next time because i can't finish my spaghetti. too cheesy. PFFT.

and then we headed to the Bowling Arena. the place were so filled with people, and cramped. the seats were placed too close with one another and we kept holding tight to our belongings. like c'moooonn, at least a metre apart? it was so near to one another, back to back. URGH. and uhhuh, these people they throw their ball instead of roll! like really. a point of time, Boboy even tried. but she got a great score for that. HAHAHAHAH!

coolest ball of the day! HAHAHA!

after that, walked around Angsana to kill time. because i dint get my codeword from my daughterson yet. she was supposed to text me, "Mama, i miss you" meaning that she has arrived along with the others and they're ready. but none. decided to cab back to City Square. walked around and searched for Mat's birthday present ;D found, and was still looking for this Vans shoes for Boboy but for her size, it was unavailable. %!%@#^@ HEH. left Malaysia at 7.30pm or so, and head to titanic, or if Boboy could name it, it would be CIRCULAR PARK. HAHAHAHAHA! *inside joke* our daughtersons awaits. HAHAHA!

when we were going up the escalator, suddenly Boboy screamed. and we looked up to see Nik and Karri running away. Boboy gave a chase and when she reached the top, she couldn't find them. accompanied her to find them and we saw them lighting a candle. i told them to get the T'misu for Boboy but it was out of stock. but they got something else. MY FAVOURITE. HAHAHAH! tak dpat Boboy's favourite, dpat mine pon jadi kay. LOL! Sky, Eka and Fyefye was there too (: thankyou korang for coming too! much appreciate.

dint know they could do this for us! HAHA!

this daughterson dint wish Boboy and Boboy thought she had forgotten and was sad. i wanted to tell her that Karri's gna be there to cheer her up but i know i just had to keep my silence (:

Eerah nearly let the secret out when she asked this.. "Fye ader?"
GRR. HAHAHAH!
Nik dint text me the codeword. so time wise, FAIL. HAHA!

My Happy Family

Happy Family
7 kisses for anyone who could guess what Eka was tryna do :P

wanted to leave for BP to pass Mat her present and her cigg but Eka's friend wanted to send us. so he dropped Future and Eerah and tasik BP, and me, Boboy and Sky alighted at BPP. passed Mat her stuffs, sit around and smoke, and left for the bustop. was holding on to Mat's plastic bag, and Boboy and i wanted to flag a cab. but we saw 187's last bus and rushed for it. dint have time to salam, AAAAAND yup. Mat's plastic bag was with me. HAHAHAHAHAH! busyyy! reached home at 1am. ate the cake and bathed. wanted to watch Mantra, but the two of us were too sleepy to carry on. decided to call it a day and sleep (:

sooo, that's the end of the Birthday Celebration. it wasn't a crazy-21 thingy, because it was all so last minute. i mean, for a chalet, i'm short on cash. for a barbecue, the thought dint cross my mind until a week before :( wanted to go club on Thursday Night, but Boboy dint want to. PFFT. hahah! sooo, that's all there is to share (:

to my Dearest Boboy, hope you enjoy what i had prepared for you. it was nothing much, but like i've promised you, i'd put a smile on your face (:
everytime i said that, it happened :P
i said i'd make you smile on midnight, i said i'd make you smile later when you were angry about something in the train, and i said i'd make you smile later at night ;D

HAPPY 21st MY DEAR! IT'S AN HONOUR TO BE THERE ON YOUR BIG DAY!
I KNOW YOU KNOW, BUT I WANT YOU TO KNOW WHAT YOU ALREADY KNOW SO THAT YOU REALLY KNOW WHAT I WANT YOU TO KNOW THAT YOU ALREADY KNOW.
BABYBOY, I LOVE YOU SO MUCH,
AND ALL I WANT IS TO SEE YOU SMILE EVERY SECOND OF YOUR DAY. EVEN THOUGH IT'S GNA CRAMP YOUR MOUTH ;P

that's all people (:

2010-10-15T00:00:00.001+08:00

HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY BOBOY! ♥

you're finally legal of everything, no wait.. almost everything. you're still not legal to enter sex shop :P but what will you be doing in there? *ahem* i wonder.. HAHAHAHA!

sayang, hope you'll enjoy your day today that i've planned for you. i'm with you now, in your house ;D happy birthday dearest.

2010-10-14T23:58:00.000+08:00

i'm outside your house, waiting for you to come out with a cake in my hand ;D

can you come out and open the door? (:

when i'm inside, we'll talk ;D

2010-09-24T22:55:00.006+08:00

i sat home one whole day. too tired to leave the house and i was feeling bored but boboy accompanied me through MSN and we chatted. i miss boboy so very much. no matter how the plan is for tomorrow, all i know is, i wana meet boboy.

yesterday was WF and friends jalan raya outing. it was kinda awkward but at the end of the day before everyone left to different directions, we shook hands and asked for forgiveness. boboy told me not to give up. boboy pulled adeq and brought her to me and we hugged and talked things out. the same goes for my cousin. boboy could just let it be the way it was but she didnt want that to happened. everytime i felt like giving up, she'll always ends up saying that they're my family. im lucky that boboy is in my life and helping me solve my issues with anyone.

its not easy to forget everything that just happened. all i need is time. when i think im recovering, i'll be back. sooner or later. sayang korang manymany.

2010-09-15T21:06:00.002+08:00

whatever happens, i'm gna be strong. it's sort of a been-there-done-that thingy (: so yeah, i'm gna try to be strong, and hopefully, just by putting a front, i'm really gna be strong, not just an act ;D

meeting girlf tomorrow. WHEEEE~ rindu awak okay! sigh, i miss you. i miss spending time with you. my dear girl, you're missed by me. jumpe besok, i love you.

2010-09-09T13:50:00.003+08:00

i've been neglecting this blog of mine. HEH. sorry. don't know what to blog about i guess?
anw, Hari Raya is coming, but somehow the joy and excitement ain't there. maybe tonight, we will feel it. after my dad comes home, around 11pm.

so i'll do a recap on what happened this week okay (:

last Monday, 6th, went to JB with Boboy. met at 12.30pm. a bumpy ride to JB. heh. driver selit suka hati dia, that a motorist wasn't happy with him. HAHAHA! funny! so we went to City Square to look around for my heels. and me, being someone who's fickle-minded, i don't know which one to buy. i even thought of not getting any and just wear the ones i have. HEH. but Boboy insisted. ishh. and i grabbed the next one i saw and bought it. HAHAHAHA! seee? like no excitement to even shop for Raya. it used to be a very exciting period, to get ready for Raya. hmm. anw, after that, we decided to watch a movie since there's nothing else to do. we watched Grown Ups. great movie (: no regrets. movie ended at 5pm and we can't think of anything else to do because the weather outside wasn't on our side. it was raining quite heavily so we had to stay indoor :( wanted to watch another movie, but somehow we didn't. we ended up buying food, and bring it back to Singapore, home sweet home (: slacked and break fast at RC, we accidentally dirtied the place because our food was in a mess. ISHH. luckily Boboy brings tissue everywhere she goes. HAHAHAHHA :P anw, both of us had a problem with our throat, and we each had a pack of ciggs. full pack. doesn't seem possible for us to be smoking and finishing it within three/four days before the pack turns bad. so we texted the rest. Mat, Fiq and Tykoz came down. made our move at 10.30pm (:

the next day, went over to Boboy's place for a movie marathon since we bought a few DVDs from our neighbouring country. so anw, watched Wujud 4 together, along with IB. some parts scare the shit out of me, and Boboy is afraid that these things will come to her room. HAHAH! cute kaan. ishh. fikiran tak betol! :P watched other movies too, and met her friends (: at 10.30pm, wanted to leave for Sengkang, but cousin texted, saying she'll leave Pasir Ris around 11.15pm. i dint wna hang around alone, so decided to send Boboy back to West. and some miscommunication and calculations happened, and i reached cousin's place at 12.30am. ISHH. panicked all the way in train, because was afraid there won't be any LRT after 12am. sometimes, it's good to just go along with the crowd. because they know where they're going ;)

on Wednesday, daddy fetched me at cousin's place at 2pm. we ran errands. Muhammadiyah, Granny's place, Gaylang, Changi to fetch first brother, and then Loyang to fetch second brother. Then off to Bedok Corner to buy food for break fast, and then to Bedok Reservoir for first brother's altered pants. and finally, home sweet home. just in time to serve. ate, and went out again. to Gaylang with WF without Adik, and scandalLOVE is there too. they shopped for Raya preparations, Outfits and Capals. left at 11pm. bus-ed home all the way. damn shagged. on the phone with Boboy but fell asleep halfway through. yes, aku jahat. ISHH. sorry :( tak buat lagi okay? ;D

today, just reached home. drove daddy to Nenek Busu's house and then to carwash. so a couple of kenalans there. ishh. kenal kat Woodlands, kerja at Tampines. HEH. i thought they were Northlanders? anw, after that, fetch mummy. and dad drove. went to Tampines Central, then to Afghanistan, then to Zizie's place to send food. ISHH. kesian mummy and daddy. daddy's going work at 4pm. Mummy went home to rest awhile before going off to work again. i think they should be resting now. waiting for Boboy to reach East (:

okay long enough? ;) k daaa. nak rest awhile before meeting Boboy.

SELAMAT HARI RAYA TO ALL THE MUSLIMS OUT THERE.
HOPE YOU'LL ALL HAVE AN ENJOYABLE TIME.
TO MY RELATIVES AND FRIENDS,
FOR AS LONG AS YOU KNOW ME, IF THERE'S ANY WAY THAT I'VE HURT YOU, EMOTIONALLY, PHYSICALLY OR MENTALLY, I SEEK FORGIVENESS.

TO WOODLANDS FAMILY, I APOLOGISE IF I'VE HURT ANY ONE OF YOU IN ANY WAY, BE IT THE WAY I JOKE, TALK OR ADVICE ♥ IN ANY WAY, I LOVE ALL SEVEN OF YOU GIRLS ALOT (: I'VE NEVER INTENTIONALLY WNA HURT YOU GIRLS (: AND IF I DID, FORGIVE ME.

BOBOY, GIRLGIRL MINTAK MAAF OKAY KALAU ADE TER-HURT PHYSICALLY. TERPUKUL DENGAN SENGAJA. TERSEPAK SUKA-SUKA. TER-SMACK FOREHEAD TANPA DIPINTA. NIH SUMER GURAUAN BERKASAR OKAY ;) AND GIRLGIRL MINTAK AMPUN KALAU THROUGHOUT OUR RELATIONSHIP, GIRLGIRL TERLUPA NAK RESPECT BOBOY KE, TERBUAT BOBOY MARAH SO BADLY KE, TERSAKITKAN HATI BOBOY KE, TERGURISKAN PERASAAN BOBOY KE, TERKASAR BAHASA KAT BOBOY KE, TERSEDIHKAN BOBOY KE. TERSTRESSKAN FIKIRAN BOBOY KE. GIRLGIRL SAYANG BOBOY ALOTALOT NYER ♥

TO MY TWO DAUGHTERSONS, I MISS YOU GUYS. IF I'VE EVER ILL-TREATED YOU, FORGIVE ME, FOR SOMETIMES MY JOKES AND WORDS ARE TOO INSENSITIVE. LIKE WHEN I CALLED ABANG A "SWEETTALKER", I NEVER THOUGHT SHE TOOK IT SERIOUSLY (: I'M SORRY OKAY (: I LOVE THE TWO OF YOU.

AND TO MY BELOVED FAMILY, SOMETIMES MY ANGER GOT THE BEST OF ME. MOST OF THE TIME, I'M VERY DEGIL AND WON'T LISTEN TO YOU GUYS. SOMETIMES, I REBEL TO YOUR WORDS. I'M SORRY IF I'VE NOT BEEN A GOOD DAUGHTER OR A GOOD SISTER TO YOU GUYS. DON'T GIVE UP ON TAMING ME, BECAUSE I STILL NEED MY FAMILY TO GUIDE ME TO BE SOMEONE BETTER EACH AND EVERY DAY. I LOVE YOU ♥

2010-09-05T00:34:00.003+08:00

"they meant alot to me, for they're the only bunch of friends i would shed tears for."

WF, just so you know, this friendship among us, i really treasure it alot. we went through happiness and sadness together. every problems we shared, we tried our best to find solutions. when one is down, everyone is down. we cheered one another up, telling one another that everything's gna be okay soon. we comfort, cry, smile, laugh together and we feel the pain everyone is holding.

if there're problems, we share and solve together.
if there's unhappiness among us, we talk things out.
when someone did something wrong, we advice.
and when someone succeed, we congratulate.

you've seen me laugh like mad, my ugly antiques, slenger-ness, my tears, my whines whenever i'm having my period, my PMS-mode, everything. any mood i'm in, you've seen it. we can joke about anything, tease one so badly, (mostly i'm your victim), but we never took it to heart, because we know, these are jokes that bonded us together (:

i'm just a text away, and i'll try my best to be there for you guys.. during office hours. HAHAHA! okay just kidding! for anytime you guys need me ;D

you guys are like a family to me, and nothing can bring us apart (:

much love ♥,
Your Minah, Your Kakak,
Your Bully-Victim,
Your Geram-Ah-Aku-Kat-Kau person,
Your Bahan-Ketawe,
aaaaaannddd, the cutest of all 8 :P
HAHAHAHAH!

sayang korang manymany! ♥

2010-08-31T13:06:00.000+08:00

CHICKEN MCNUGGET MCSPICY,
SAYA RINDU WOODLANDS FAMILY ♥

2010-08-20T19:44:00.002+08:00

it's been a long time since i last blogged. been neglecting this blog of mine. heh. i'm sorry. internet's been down. been using mobile broadband. that suck, i know. urgh.

anw, yesterday, watched STEP UP 3D with Boboy, Maya and Eerah. awesome. thankyou Eerah for the treat. it was a last minute thingy. supposed to stay home because i dint sleep at all, and Boboy wanted me to rest at home. but a friend needs me, so i wna be there for her. in the end, we double-dated. -.- HAHAHA! bussyyy. OHHH, then we played "Truth NO Dare" at Titanic. HEH. hmm. no comments okay (: sometimes, in the game of truth, we tend to lie also ;D i'm just saying.. how do we know that it's the truth, or not right? people break rules all the time.

anw, I MISS WOODLANDS FAMILY. LIKE ALOT. SIGH. after Ramadhan and Syawal, things will get back to normal okay! ;D

few days back, went to Geylang with WF and friends (: AAAAANNNDDDD, i got to meet KARRI!! i miss that daughterson of mine so much. pfft. pity Boboy and Aiman. they left already before Karri reached. ishh. sigh. things are just not good in Happy Family when Adik drifted away. sigh. adik, we miss you so much okay. if only you know how much..

anyway, somebody added me at facebook. HMM. agakagak, what does she want from me? HEH.

2010-08-12T14:44:00.002+08:00

poor Boboy is scared because of what happened. and if i'm in her position, i'll be scared to death. but Boboy, be strong okay. i know you are. nak saya kasi awak surah pelindung? :P awak yang ajar saya, if we're scared, lagi they kacau. so cepat-cepat be brave okay. tapi takpe, kalau awak takot, saya aderrr~ saya brave! HEHEHE!

i miss Boboy :( besok we meet okay? ;D pindah block sebelah please! HAHAHA!

last night, slept at 5plus. we entertained Adik and Sakina on facebook. balas-balas pantun. confirm satu-satu darah up. HEH. lagi-lagi adik. HAHAHAHA! ehh salah. confirm yang paling darah up are the ones not involved but receiving the emails and notifications. HAHAHAHAH!! maaf yer kawankawan. bulan puasa nih, banyak bersabar yer ;D i wna fast :( i wna bangun sahur :( girlf also wna fast :( soon okay. few more days ;D

and to my daughterson, Papa, Mama and Abang miss you alot ♥
we were there to bring you up when you fall, and we will still be here to see you stand tall.
the bond between us 4 used to be so tight, will you come back to be by our side?

2010-08-09T09:17:00.002+08:00

I'M SUPPOSED TO GO GET READY FOR WORK, BUT I CAN'T. BECAUSE I WNA BLOG. HEHH. K AFTER BLOGGING KAY.

I'M HOME FROM SLEEPING OVER GIRLF'S PLACE. HER BROTHER GOT ENGAGED YESTERDAY, SO THE NIGHT BEFORE, I SLEPT OVER. MAYA, NIK AND FYE ALSO SLEPT OVER. SUPPOSED TO HELP HER MUM AND EVERYTHING, BUT SOMETHING HAPPENED THAT NIGHT, SO WE WENT HOME LATE.

HOPE EVERYONE WILL TRY TO FORGET ABOUT WHAT HAPPENED, BE STRONG, AND MOVE ON. HAPPY THOUGHTS AND DON'T THINK ABOUT THEM.

I DON'T KNOW WHY I'M TYPING IN CAPITAL LETTERS, BUT YEAH. I JUST FEEL LIKE IT. LIKE IT'S NICE.. HAHAHAH! OKAY SAYA WEIRD, SAYA TAWU. PFT.

OKAAAAAYYY GIRLF SLEEPING. I KNOW SHE'S TIRED, LIKE VERY. YESTERDAY, WHILE LYING ON THE BED, I TOLD HER TO TAKE A NAP. HEHH, SHE DINT WANT TO. DEGIL. -.- SOMEHOW, I FELL ASLEEP, AND SHE DID TOO. HHAHAHAHAH!! SLENGER. OKAYYOKAYY I LOVE YOU LIKE ALOTALOT NYER KAY. TAK BEDEK. AND YOU LOVE ME LOTSLOTS KAAAAN? I KNOOOOW~ :P K DA. SAYANG YOU, BOYBENGONGYAW! HAHAAHAHAHAHAHA!! ;D

lots of love,
fiqahhSTAR

HAHAHAHAHAH! MCIAM FAMILAR TAK BOBOY? HEHEHEH!!

2010-08-04T00:44:00.003+08:00

i don't know how to explain how i'm feeling. sigh. i'm not blaming you, but this is just how i feel. not gna elaborate. you won't understand how i feel, because you're not in my shoes. but don't worry, i'm gna heal this wound because i wna live happily ever after with you, just like a fairytale, that we all know so well~

goodnight people, enjoy your night, and your day later.

selamat malam cinta
mimpi indah, mimpi girlgirl ♥

2010-08-02T00:00:00.004+08:00

HAPPY FIRST MONTHSARY ♥

Boboy, being with you cures all the hurt and sorrow from my past.
you remind me how wonderful being in love is.
you remind me how great it is to have someone by my side always.
you remind me how much a happier girl i was not being a flirt, but being a girlfriend.
you bring back the "butterflies fluttering in my stomach" feeling whenever you look into my eyes.

you never fail to always be there for me, took great care of me when i was sick, be there for me when i was alone, and wipe away my tears when i'm sad.

thank you for assuring me that the past doesn't matter anymore, and for assuring me i'm the only one in your heart.

our past don't matter, because you're my present, and hopefully my future.

thank you for the surprises, and for all the things you have done for me.
a short list from the many things you have done for me that i'm thankful for..
you clubbed to accompany me and to take care of me if i got drunk.
you lent me your bed to sleep on because i lack of rest.
you came all the way to east to eat chicken rice with me.
you accompanied me to Yishun because i was craving for waffles.
you took care of me when i was sick, reminding me to eat my meds.
you did not let me stop calling her my sister when i was on a sensitive mode that day, telling me she was just joking.
you went online for me the whole day, even though you're not really a fan of it.
a short list of the many things you've done for me, my dear.

cinta kamu, sayang.
hanya kamu, boboy ♥

2010-08-01T11:18:00.003+08:00

yesterday, spent the day at Boboy's place. slept around 4.30am, and woke up at 10.20am. got ready and everything, then made my way to the west.

watched tv, and i wanted to sleep. but she kept whining and asking me to wake up. sadness okay. bangsa da ngantok and can sleep any moment, tapi tetap kena force myself to wake up :( then left her place 8plus and we dined at Jurong Point's banquet (:

on the phone with her, listening to her whine since just now. but i'm not giving her any attention which is making her whine even more. HAHAHAHA! okaydaa. nak layan girlf sayaaa ♥

okaytakecare.

2010-07-29T14:55:00.002+08:00

happy 19th birthday to my dear sakina, hope your wish come true okay (; and may you enjoy life, and cheer up dear.
i hope you had a blast on your birthday and may it be a memorable one (:

yesterday, went swimming and jurong east with WF, Boboy and Aiman. a pity Maya couldn't tag along :( kalau tak da complete 8. ishh. it's okay! we understand (: went over Boboy's place at 12pm, then watched "Heart" and i fell asleep for a few minutes. then wake up, and Boboy was about to sleep. so.. we slept. HEH. overslept, because she had a hard time waking up, and we were late. sorry dearestS. swam, ate, swam, ate. and it was time for surprise. HEH. busy okay mat, adik and me. we hid behind a van, but they saw the light from Adik's phone. ishh. cnot jadi spy la adik. HAHA! then by 11pm, off home. train-ed to Jurong East, and bus-ed home. ishh. thought of walking home but Boboy tak kasi. PFFT.

okaybest. today stay home. shagged. tomorrow work, blahh.

OHHHHHH, i wna blog about what happened on tuesday ;D

planned a surprise since monday morning. everything went well, (cehh mciam big surprise gitu. padahal padahal). at night, on the phone with Boboy, and she said something that sounded like she dint wna meet me. PFFT. sad ahh. plan fail, and sounds like she really don't wna meet me sehh. GRR. flying kick nak? then i sad uh. kental, cried. HAHAHAHA! yang sweet nye, she knows even though i dint tell. AWW. kental kan girlf awak. ishh. dint wna talk to her, but couldn't sleep :( HAHAHA! k whatever.
the next day, overslept so dint get to follow daddy send mummy to work. panicked. called daddy. he said he bought the putu mayam already. uhhuh, that's the surprise. to turn up at Boboy's place with putu mayam. HAHAHA! she has been craving for it for more than a week. but never got it. sedihkaaaan. HAHA! bathed and everything, went out of house by 9am. train-ed to Boon Lay. Boboy called and dint wna pick up because obviously, she'll know where i'm heading too. so i rejected and texted her saying i'm outside with daddy. can't talk. then when i reached Boon Lay, i told her to call me and that daddy is quite far from me. while waiting for bus, told her that i'm going home by bus, because daddy is taking sucha long time doing something and i'm bored. so when nearing her place, i started a topic about suddenly turning up at her area. she was going.. "jangan mengarut ar" all the way from Gek Poh Shopping Centre to her block. she made me describe my surroundings, left ade ape, right ade ape, depan ade ape.. (cute kan nih slenger! HAHA!) and when i described, she said i memorised the route. WHAT THE HELL. MINTAK SMACK FOREHEAD! HAHAHAHAHHA! then when i'm at bustop, she still don't believe. she told me to walk to her block. so i walked the long way, to avoid the normal route because if i walk the normal route, she can see me. HEH. she even made me swear that i'm really under her void deck, and also threaten to go missing if i lied. ISH. waited for 15 minutes for her to bathe and fetch me under void deck. 5 minutes la sangat! :P a girl will always be a girl :P then spend time at her place, before heading to woodlands to meet the rest (:

HAHAHAHAHAHHAHA! OKAY THAT'S THE END OF THE SURPRISE. I CALL IT SURPRISE PUTU MAYAM, CAN? HAHAHAHAHHA! OKAY DA. BOBOY SLEEPING. AND I'M BORED. SO I WNA GO WATCH TV (: OKAY TAKECARE READERS. LOVE KORANG, BUT LOVE GIRLF MORE :P HAHAHAHA!

good morning, good afternoon, and good night ;D

2010-07-24T09:43:00.003+08:00

i wish you'd open up to me and tell me how you really feel
about everything and anything that has happened and will be happening.
only then would i be able to be a better someone for you,
because i wna be the best just for you ♥

i promise i'll always be by your side whenever you need me.
sometimes, i might not literally be by your side, but always know that wherever i am, you'll always be in my heart, and in my mind.
i love you, and only you.
and i promise, whatever happens, i'll be with you.

i'm afraid of making promises ever since..
but i'm not afraid to make them anymore, because i'm with you

"I look into the eyes as you stare into mine,
and all i can think is "I must be the luckiest girl in the world""

cinta kamu, sayang ♥

2010-07-22T10:32:00.003+08:00

unfaithful.

is it so hard to stay faithful? is it so hard to not make friends with someone who has the potential to make you fall for them? heh. is it so hard to tell yourself, you're attached and you don't wna hurt your girlf? why are there infidelity cases in a relationship? sigh. put yourself in your partner's shoes, and think how you would feel if your partner is unfaithful towards you.

from my experience, i feel fcuked up, useless, and it left a huge scar; in my heart, my self-esteem, and my ego.

thankyou Boboy for taking care of your superdegil girlf. i'm sorry i smoked okay. tak buat lagi. and i trip alot of times when on the phone with you last night. but i don't wna hang up :(
and forgive me for my mindset. i'll try to change it, but it's not gna happen overnight. give me time okay. help me out, will you? ;)
and sesungguhnya, hanya awak dihati, sayang. trust me, okay? (; ♥
oooohhhh, thank you for blogging for me ;P

cinta kamu, sayang ♥

k daaa. just took my meds. urghh. sesungguhnya, i hate consuming all this pills. pfft. tak baikbaik poonnnn. makin teruk ade ah. pft. nak sleep uh. Boboy pon mciam tanak bangon! hmph! HAHAHA! okayokay. goodmorning people. goodnight syafiqahh ;D

2010-07-19T23:35:00.006+08:00

im sick at the moment. ): yesterday ran/sat in the rain. nvm, at least got sick for my loved one mciam sweet gitu. haha. ran in the rain coz Boboy wanted to pee badly when we were at the shop. kesian dia. then we ran back to the others and we received a very saddening news. and that made me realise that we shouldnt start playing with fire when we know that it could burn down a house.

i want my waffles but unfortunately the shop was closed when we went there. :( Boboy got to eat Hotcakes! :( TAK FAIR!

im coughing pretty badly and i dont like the sandy feeling in my throat. Boboy asked me to drink lots of plain water. ish! i dont like! tak sedap! no taste! then said if im not feeling better, i have to see the doctor with Boboy. i dont like medicine! i dont like doctors! i dont wana see the doctor!

andand, im a goodgirl today. i stayed home. Boboy also stayed home. and since i was bored at home, Boboy accompanied me through MSN. Boboy was online for long and Boboy is still online. kirekan sweet la gitu. hee.

should i go out or stay home tomorrow? haizz! bored tau duduk uma. ):

"the hours i spent with you, i look upon as sort of a perfumed garden, a dim twilight, and a fountain singing to it. you and you alone make me feel that im alive."

i miss WF! ):

goodnight people, and selamat malam cinta ♥

2010-07-16T07:09:00.002+08:00

just hang up the phone with Boboy. chatted with her throughout the night. now she's taking a nap while i'm going to get ready for work. i swear i feel like not going work. damn damn sleepy. but it's okay. i will still go work ;D after work, going woodlands for soccer (: gna be drained out tday. hehh.

girlfriend, saya love awak okay. awak girl ke, boy ke, sakit ke, sihat ke, giler ke, irritating ke, apeape ke, saya tetap love awak manymany okay ;D ♥

2010-07-15T02:20:00.003+08:00

yesterday was awesome (: went to Jurong Swimming Complex with family ;D met Boboy at Jurong West at 5pm, and Nik and Karri at Jurong East. they had fun swimming, and i had fun taking pichas (: but i wna swim and play in the water too :( nehhmind. next time okay korang. sooooon. thanks for the beautiful day ♥

after swimming, washing up and eating, 9pm headed to a pondok and chill. Boboy brought her guitar so they were playing many songs. Karri and i played tried juggling this ball that we found, but it was deflated. so it was a failed attempt. hehh. so we joined Boboy and Nik. left the place at 11pm. Boboy sent me to Jurong East. thank you cinta, for the lovely day and also.. for the screen saver ;D HEHEHEHE! ♥ awak alot.

pichas up soon, or maybe not gna upload it. lazy ;D sleeping now. girlfriend sleep already. sick sick. cepat baik please. risaaaauuu :( cepat okaaayyy. soccer 18th! ishh.

and i miss WF. will meet you girls on Friday (: street socceerrrrrr. okaygo!

goodnight people, and selamat malam cinta ♥

2010-07-13T08:57:00.002+08:00

i'm awake early because i need to get ready for work :( ishh, i tired. sigh.

yesterday, spent half a day at ITE College East because WF had an inter-college tournament. cheer up okay girls. you dint lose, you won 3rd placing ;D and trust me, you girls did your best, and i'm not kiddin'. every competition has a winner, and there will be those who lost. cheer up okay loveS ♥
somehow somewhere, Boboy was there. pfft. shocked okay. after the girls washed up, we headed to Tampines to eat. i dint eat because i want my Chicken Rice at College East :( so i dint eat whole day. nehhmind, getting it today. YAYY! ♥
was so fickled about going to RC or not. walked to bustop and still thinking. saw 168, straight away board the bus ;D but still deciding. LOL! aku fickle, aku tawu. left the place at 9.30pm (:

TODAY, after work, i'm going to College East to get my chicken rice! WHEEE~ with scandalLOVE, Boboy, and my two daughterson! HAHAHAHA! okayokay, i wna go bathe (:

good morning people, and selamat pagi cinta ♥

2010-07-11T10:47:00.004+08:00

we are born with two eyes, two ears, two kidneys, two, legs, two hands, and so on. but we're only given a heart, and in one heart, there will only be one person. this is my perspective. to me, it's not possible for one to love two person deeply. if there's someone else in the heart, then the love for the other person would slowly fade. there's no such thing as "i love them both deeply". you're just confused, because both of them, combined together, makes you feel like you're living the dream. in actual fact, you're just searching for A someone, who is exactly like the two of them when combined together.
and to be with someone new, you have to totally move on from the one you were with, so that you will not compare the past and the present, because the past is the one who brought us to the present, and the present will be the one, who will show us our future.
life is easy, if you make it easy. it's all about how you choose to live. if you chose to be happy, then take life as it is easily. bear with everything, and be strong.
if you have a problem, and there's no solution to it, don't waste your time thinking about it because there still won't be a solution to it. and if a problem has a solution to it, don't bother thinking about it because the solution is there and will come to you ;D
i'm making life sounds easy, although i know it's easier said than done. but as long as you tell yourself that you live once and you wna be happy in this life, then don't trouble yourself with small things that you yourself make it seem big. and if you have big problems, tell yourself that these are all tests from The Mighty One, and that you're gna face it with a smile on your face (:
live life the easy way, and if life ain't easy, at least show the world, put up a facade, that life isn't so tough ;D

what if one day, what happened to them, happens to us?
what will you do? and what will happen to us? will you leave me? sigh.

2010-07-11T01:19:00.000+08:00

i'm afraid.. that she's gna ask you to choose, and that i'd lose you..

2010-07-04T23:58:00.003+08:00

today, went out with Boboy to watch The Karate Kid. like finally, i get to watch it. thank you ♥ met her at Yishun at 3. she was late. PFFT. hahahaha, takpe da biase :P

the movie was awesome, i swear. very very niceeee ;D worth the last minute plan. HAHA! after that, head to Chong Pang to meet Maya and Hilmi. busyyy. stakat go there to meet them and eat. waste my time. HAHAHAH! kiddin'!!

then the two of them went back to their cousin's place. last minute plan again, Boboy ajak go Bottle Tree Park. hehh (: spend time there and then off by 10pm. walked to Khatib, and she was damn tired. sumpah cute. mciam orang mabuk! HAHAHA!

thank you for the movie treat and the beautiful day and night. sayang kamu ♥

2010-06-30T23:54:00.002+08:00

i fell for you, i don't know about you.
but whatever it is, i've decided not to leave, until you let me go (:

2010-06-28T18:02:00.003+08:00

can we control our heart? can we control who we want to love? can we control who we want to fall for?

i forgot to tell you to not fall for me when we first started contacting. i forgot to remind you that i'm not worth falling in love with. i forgot to tell you i'm not worth your love. i forgot to tell you.. i'm not good enough for you.. sigh.

sometimes, i feel like taking my leave before i fall deeper. but i know that it's gna be hard to leave you because somehow, i'm falling for you too. but there's just so many things i'm afraid of. i'm scared i can't be a good girlfriend to you, i'm afraid i'm not as good as the girl you used to love. i'm scared that i'm gna hurt you, and i'm afraid.. that you're gna leave me like how the rest do. and.. i'm unsure about how you're feeling now.

should i.. take my leave? sigh.

2010-06-24T22:20:00.004+08:00

kawan, i'm sorry if you're mad at me. comparing you with her, i'm just provoking you. i wna make you think.. please don't start playing with fire, even though it's a small one. because my dear, a small fire, when it gets out of control, it could burn down a building, it could burn down something beautiful. as a friend, i'm just advicing. just be careful. now, you can say anything. you don't know what might happen, if you continue doing what you're doing. so yeah, just an advice. takecare dear friend. i love you okay. i don't wna see you burn down something beautiful ♥

2010-06-23T10:30:00.002+08:00

it's been so long since i last blogged. so last Saturday, slept over at Fieza's. hehh, busy. great night (: okay that's all i can say (:

the next day, went to watch KK. sigh. tragic night. slept over at Zafirah's.

the day after, Monday, went to ICA to collect Zafirah's passport. then to Woodlands. kesian member. Adik kacau rabakk. ishh. and then went to hospital.

CARA AKU BLOG HARI INI SUNGGUH PATHETIC. KERANA I IS SUNGGUH TIRED :(

overnight at hospital. second time. and i'm still very scared. pasal takot, mood aku ruin. i know my perangai very ke-sial-an towards Syahirah and Boboy :( sorry! hmm.

OKAY DA NAK SLEEP. PERANGAI PIG SAYA TAWU. TAPI AWAK SUMER TAKKAN FAHAAAAAAMMM :( :(

okay time ngantokk, aku giler. HEH. goodnight.

selamat malam cinta ♥ mimpi indah.

2010-06-19T00:27:00.003+08:00

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY TO AN AND SAKINA ♥

okay, the day started out with me accompanying daddy to the hospital early in the morning. lepak with mummy, lay down beside her and i fell asleep. burok kay perangai! doctor nurse datang pon aku tak perasan. HAHAHA! best kay tido sebelah mummy. sayang mummy. mwahh! then at 4pm, Mat came and we went to eat at SGH Banquet. then Maya came around 5.15pm.

bus-ed to BP. An, Sakina and Fiq came down. An and Sakina went home, and then we went to BPP for fiq's and maya's dinner. at 9.30pm, bus-ed to Woodlands then bus-ed to Bedok to meet Eka. then i'm HOME by 11.30pm (: cepat kan?

cook for brothers macaroni, and then dinner. okay now nak mandi (:
takecare lovelies ♥

2010-06-16T09:07:00.000+08:00

saya is missing awak.
selamat pagi cinta.

2010-06-14T19:34:00.002+08:00

i'm home early today. left RC at 6.15pm. sorry WF♥ i'm so shagged! i need sleep.

sleepover at scandalLOVE's place yesterday. forced by the three gundus. grr. at first i came in the afternoon to meet them. i miss them ;D then plan to meet Mat and Adik at RC was cancelled, so chill with them. plan to go out, lepak at LP. lepas satu tido, satu tido. perangai piglet!! finally went out ten plus. thought of going home straight away, but like i've mentioned, the three gundus forced me to stay. lagi-lagi the two gundus. HAHAHA! maaf la yer korang, panggil korang gundu. sayang korang ♥ movie marathoned till 6am and Ace and Utt fell asleep. me and scandalLOVE couldn't sleep. HEHH. but in the end, slept awhile. like, an hour? ishh. sedihh. time check, 10.10am. rushed home. bathe, went out again. rumah aku da jadi hotel -.-

fetched Mat after work and waited for Fiq while having lunch. then we walked to Suntec and go to sports stores. BUSY. then head to RC. on the way to RC from Suntec, stomach cramp. grr, damn the period. ISHH! and then Elmo, Adik and Maya came. sorry Maya. you came just for awhile and then i had to leave. awak tak sempat pun duduk. ishh, sadness kan :( takpe, we'll meet Wednesday ;D

reached home, and bathed ;D

now, i wna sleep. sleep sleeeeeep. goodnight lovelies.

selamat malam cinta. mimpi indah ♥

2010-06-13T13:58:00.002+08:00

i panicked when i wasn't thinking about you,
then i realised that i'm totally over you ;D

2010-06-13T12:50:00.002+08:00

early in the morning, and i'm already not in my best mood. like really, this is the second time that my family told me to stay home because they wna go "celebrate my second brother's birthday". the first time was last sunday. imagine how fcukedup i am, when i woke up, seeing my second brother getting ready to go out, with his friends/girlfriend. mciam, WTF?! you told me we're all going out, and yet the subject is going out with other people. puas hati aku pun kluar kan dengan kawankawan akukan?! abeh nih kalau aku mengamok, mesti ckap.. "duduk rumah satu hari pun susah?" bukan susah ahh. tapi nak suro aku duduk rumah, takmo pakai tactic kotor can?! ahhhhhhhhhhhh pape la. i'm still going out, i don't care!

aye, i'm bored. wna go bathe, then go find mates to go out with (:

2010-06-11T23:34:00.002+08:00

okay today after work, headed to Yishun to meet Boyboy. SHE WAS LATE. hahahha! tinggal lebih dekat, tapi lambat. pffffft. then we waited for Maya and Eerah. hahaha, both of them were shock to see me (: hee, our surprise menjadi! hehehe! then lepak Yishun near Safra till night. pity someone nak tengok My Name Is Khan :P :P
enjoyed asking random questions, random giler! sumpah! LOL!

okay saya tired. must sleep early. tomorrow work :(

girl, can't you see,
i'm using you.
open your eyes widely,
i don't love you.

2010-06-10T22:26:00.002+08:00

awak butch, saya tak suke.
kbyeee~

kau dengan exs kau, balikbalik situ jgak.
come and go, come and go.
suke hati kau la monyeeettt.
asalkan kau bahagia -.-

hi, this is some information about me (:
Name : Fifi
Address : Woodlands Drive 50
School : ITE BB
Course : Fitness Training

HAHAHAHAHAH! hanya An and NUR faham.
not Nuraini, but Nur........
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA!

2010-06-10T01:43:00.000+08:00

i think i'm partially over you.
good job to me!

2010-06-09T14:12:00.001+08:00

everyone wna be my girlfriend, except for you.

everyone chooses number 4, how about you?

PFFFFFTT!

2010-06-08T22:14:00.002+08:00

i dint go prac today, sumpah no mood. sigh. hang out at Woodlands with WF plus Fieza (:

Irah, sorry, saya tak dpat jumpe awak tadi. oh, congratulations aye. hope you'll last long with her (: told ya you'll be able to find someone better than me (; i love you okay kawan ♥ and the next time when you meet me, bring her along. at least she won't think differently. suro die bawak satu kawan, blehh kite double date. her friend and me. HAHAHAH! JOKING (:

Annura, sumpah lappy awak berat. ISHH.

Love, thanks for meeting me last minute. I MISS YOU SO MUCH! ishhhhh. saya love awak (:

By, saya rindu awak, sumpah. jumpe saya oteyyy!

WH, i nak jumpe u. u kate last week, one of the days u jumpe i. TAK PON. i is sad :'( takpe, i tawu u busy. i tunggu u text i ajak i kluar. PFFFFFT.

okay i is penat. but i wna sleep late tnight. because tomorrow saya no need jadi alarm clock. hahahaha! going irah's house tomorrow. woooots~ aye, nak bathe (:

selamat malam cinta, mimpi indah ♥

goodnight kawans!

2010-06-07T00:00:00.001+08:00

6 months ago, we made it official.
2 months later, it ended.
if only.. sigh.
happy supposedly 6th monthsary, ♥.

2010-06-06T12:07:00.001+08:00

terima kasih cinta ♥

2010-06-05T23:59:00.002+08:00

okay the day started off with Maya waking me up. i was late. ishh. supposed to meet her at Yishun at 10am, but i reached at 10.30am. tu takpe, she reached at 10.45am. GRR. i bumped into exgirlf Irah when i was waiting for Maya. asked from her a stick of cigg, she don't have. she gave me ten bucks ask me go buy cigg. ishh, sweet kan ex aku? aku tawuuu. hahahah! then we made our way to CCK and met An and Sakina.

okay reached fico and saw many familiar faces. ishh, byk oii. best.. HEHH. ex date saya pon ade, how?! hahahaha! i likeee~ Maya, An and me took the opportunity to play ball at the open court. wheee~ then after that, we went to Jurong Point and had our breakfast/lunch/dinner. busy i know! hahaha! off to hang out somewhere at Jurong West and waited for Fieza, Eerah and Nana to come. play ball, and they rembat me. i become the shooting target. hmph! tak love korang anymore baru tawu! PFFFFT.

then left the place at 9pm. ishh, late like hell can?! niat hati nak jalan at 8pm or earlier. niat ajer la tu jadinye. HEHH.

Eva, after so long, we met again *winkk. will text you aye ;D

hey, she's just an exgirlf, and now a friend. trust me on that. that's all. sigh. up to you to trust or not aye.

2010-06-05T00:54:00.001+08:00

i is cinta-ing you, how?
but you is cinta-ing her, how?
kalau tak, lagi 2 days.. hmm.
i is sleepy, maya ask to sleep already.
but i is rindu-ing you, how?
AHAHA, and i is giler and shagged tonight.

goodnight ♥

2010-06-03T00:02:00.002+08:00

okay, i'm so tired :( sigh, and tomorrow's gna be a busy day. after prac, there's work. then after work, there's tutoring. sighh. i need energy, i'm so shagged. i need energy boost, and i need you ;D

hey girl, we played the game.
we text every minute, we flirt with each other.
you fell in love with me, you lost.
so goodbye ;)

saya rindu awak, how? ishh.
goodnight ♥

2010-05-31T22:28:00.002+08:00

WF, i know you're getting tired of advicing me, yet i'm not listening. Bukan fiqahh tanak dengar.. I'm sorry but i love her just too much. She's the best for me, and there's no one better. She's a flawed gem that's worth to be kept. Loving her, i don't ask to be loved back nor cherished. Just seeing her smile, it makes me happy, even though the smile is not for me. Like loving a treasure you can't have, yet by looking at it, it makes you contented. I'm not saying i'm happy living like this, but i'd choose this life, rather than living with someone else. I really appreciate all the advices, and i know you guys love me and don't wna see me like this, but dearests, i also don't see myself happy being with someone else.
Stand by me, i need you guys.

2010-05-31T09:30:00.001+08:00

they think i deserve someone better.
i think that we complete each other.
what do you think then?

2010-05-30T23:34:00.002+08:00

selamat pagi cinta ♥

i just reached home, shagged. in the morning, woke up late. got ready fast game punyerr, and off to woodlands. head to JB with Maya and Fieza (: hahaha, busy oii kite with ciggs. LOL! sadness kaan, i can't bring in cigg for myself. ishh takpe (:
Fieza and Maya, thanks la kaaaan for the songs. PFFT. hahaha!

then lepak Woodlands. kecohh. MELETUP. hahahah! okay penat. ishh, nak bathe (:

hanya awak dihati, tiada lain.
biar beribu yang datang, hanya awak pilihan saya.
biarpun kita tak akan bersama, hati saya hanya milik awak.
mungkinkah awak mengerti?
saya cintakan awak, kerana awak yang mengajar saya erti cinta.
seventh, ♥

2010-05-29T23:41:00.003+08:00

my day tday is.. boring, i swear. after work, which time flies so damn slow, dinner at giant with irah and her sister. ishh. suppose to either lepak woodlands or yishun, but somehow, everyone had plans. tomorrow maybe?

tomorrow, going JB with Maya and Fieza. saya nak buy DVD manymany! saya merajok dengan Mat :( saya text, die tak reply. saya tanak text die lagi. :'(

by, saya rindu awak. jumpe saya please. hmm. ♥

WH, sorry okay. i don't think i'm tagging along on Monday. hehh (: will RE-confirm again aye (:

tadi saya saw NIA (: heeee, die smile kat saya!
sejarah cinta kita tak mungkin berulang
walaupun kasih kita seluas lautaaaan~~
SAAAAP, okay aku merepekk.

adik, i miss you :'( why you hilangkan diri? :( sigh. i hope to see you soon.

2010-05-29T20:53:00.002+08:00

i is sleepy. i've been sleeping at 4am/5am these few days. ishh. not good y'know.
by i rindu u, sumpah. sigh. and i miss adik too. haiz.

i nak sleep awhile. besok maybe going malaysia with Maya (: hehh, busyy. siape nak ikot?!

k da i is very very sleepy. goodnight. see ya'll tnight aye (:

ishh, sakit pon nak keluar. degilnyer blehh tahan teruk.
degil-degil pon aku sayang, ishh. tak faham betoooll!

2010-05-29T10:13:00.002+08:00

by, i miss you. meet me soon.
i nak go work, takecare ;D

i jumpe WH on mondaayyy.
with wawa, reena and her friends.
hmm. ishh.

2010-05-28T00:02:00.001+08:00

emoshit pe aku? tanak bbual dengan kau?
HAHAHAHAH! mane blehh. sayang oii.
okay whatever, goodnight. i is happy (:

2010-05-27T20:36:00.003+08:00

the hardest thing to do is to ignore you.
and since forever, the only thing i wna do is to make you happy.
sigh ;'(

2010-05-27T03:08:00.004+08:00

AKU KALAU DA TYPE PAKAI CAPS LOCK, TU MAKNENYE AKU MARAH GILER PIGLET NIHHH. TELINGE AKU PANAS WEII. HATI SAKET AJERR.

BUDAK KECIK, KALAU KAU TAK PUAS HATI, KAU JUMPE AKU OKAY. TURON WOODLANDS AYE (: KITE BBUAL. TAKMO NAK BLAKANG AKU, STEP MANE PEH BIG FCUK, TAPI PART NAMPAK AKU, KENTAL MCIAM ANAK TIKUS. TAKOT KE NAK BBUAL? ADE BUAT SALAH? ISHH, SAYA PON PEREMPUAN, JANGAN TAKOT. SAYA TAKKAN HURT AWAK. SAYA TAK PUKUL PEREMPUAN.

AND KALAU DA RAMPAS KEPUNYAAN ORANG, TOLONG LA YER HARGAI BENDE TU. JANGAN DA AMEK, KIRE APE BANGGA AH? LEPAS TU BUAT BENDE TU MCIAM SAMPAH. KALAU TATAWU HARGAI, IN THE FIRST PLACE, TAKMO CURIK KAY. TAPI SINCE KAU DA CURIK, TOLONG LA JAGE BAIK-BAIK. KAU FIKIR KAU SIAPE? KAU MANE PEH HOTSTUFF NAK PERGI KAT SUMER ORANG, FLIRT SANE SINI? TU KEJE AKU AJER FLIRT-FLIRT. PASAL AKU SINGLE. KALAU DA DECIDE TO BE ATTACHED, AGAK-AGAK LA TU STATUS. KAU SAYANG DIE KE TAK? ATAU KAU EGO SEBAB TAKOT AKU AMEK BALIK TU SEBAB KAU SIMPAN AJER? SUMER BUTCH KAU NAK. ISHH NONSENSE LA KAU. KAU FLIRT PON BUKAN NYE DORANG NAK KAN KAU. KIREKAN APE? MATAEH KAU TU TEMPAT KAU PUNYE TEMPAT REHAT EH? JANGAN JOYY, SALAH ORANG KAU NAK MEMPERBODOHKAN. JANGAN BUAT DIE DARAH UP. AKU TAK PERNA BERANI NAK BUAT DARAH DIE UP. SCARY. ISHH, MEMANG MASIH KECIK AH. TAK CUKUP AJARAN. PFFT.

JANGAN SAMPAI AKU YANG PERGI TEMPAT KAU. JANGAN SAMPAI. BUT DON'T WORRY, SIKIT PON AKU TAKKAN JENTIK KAU. PASAL AKU HORMAT MATAEH KAU, YANG KAU ANGGAP MCIAM FUNFAIR TUU.

KAU DIAM PON HANDSOME. EH TAK, KAU DIAM KE TAK, TETAP KAU TAK HANDSOME. AKU TAK PAYAH DIAM, DA HANDSOME. PFFT. HAHAHA! AKU CKAP KAU TAK HANDSOME, KAU TAKMO PLAKK FEELINGFEELING KAU LAWA. HEHH, TIPU ORANG DOSA, TIPU DIRI SENDIRI LAGI DOSA *WINKK.

SO BOTTOMLINE IS, BLEHH TAK KAU TOLONG BUAT DIA BAHAGIA, TAKMO NAK PERANGAI MCIAM SIAL BIN SUAR. KAU ADE SATU HATI KAN? KAU BERI SATU HATI TU KAT SATU ORANG AJER OKAY.

2010-05-26T23:02:00.001+08:00

FCUKING FCUKED UP.
FCUKING NO MOOD.
FCUKING BITCH.
GO FCUK OFF.
FCUKER.

mee rebus aku sumer da terkeluar balik. aku lapar. besok aku makan.
k aku bingit. telinga aku panas dengar cerita. aku sedih. sedih sampai aku nangis. tatawu asal, padahal tade link dengan aku. tapi aku sedih dan marah dan geram. kbye.

karma

2010-05-25T22:38:00.003+08:00

awesome day tday. met the whole of WF♥.

head to Marina and ate at Subway, okaybest. yang makan footlong habis dulu dari yang makan 6-inch. hmph! tade meaning ahhh. must learn to eat faster! and then went to Peninsular, met the police. adoii, please, tanak naik turon court. kecohh. then to bugis, then back to the police. and then finally to Esplanade. Mat tak pergi kerja, and i think it's my fault. ishh, sorry! ishh, next time don't meet us BEFORE work. hehehe! hang out at Esplanade till 9pm before everyone made a move home.

irah, meet me next week okay, or this friday after work. sorry my schedule's pack this week ;D

WH, jumpe i next week. i tak kesa! u owe me banyakbanyak cerita. and i nak kasi u ur souvenir. sorry kalau TAK COOL :P ♥

why is it so hard to be faithful to your partner? know your status, please. don't get attached if you don't wna be faithful. and don't fall in love with someone, if you plan to fall in love with another one. don't hurt my friends.

it hurts to hear you being treated like that, i don't know why. but i can't say anything because you chose this life, to be with her. so do what's best for you, and again, i just want you to be happy, love ♥

2010-05-25T02:10:00.000+08:00

if only we were still together,
life would be simple..
would be perfect.

i miss you.

abang

2010-05-25T00:01:00.003+08:00

abang, sorry okay i kept turning down your offer to go zirca with you. i'm not really a fan of clubbing (: once in a while blehh ogay (: and this time, adik mintak maaf again. adik not interested in butches. so yea adik tanak kenalkenal with your friend. adik da elekk uh. HAHAHAH! i love you abang. meet me soon (:

2010-05-24T19:54:00.002+08:00

i'm back from Madrid, finally. i miss manymany people, i swear :')
WF♥ sent me off, and they welcomed me back ;D thank you sayangs, i love you all manymany ;D
WH, Syahirah and NIA sent me off with a text message, thank you so much. dint expect a message from NIA, thank you.. kawan.

i had fun at Madrid, and thanks to the WiFi at the hotel, it let me stay connected with my friends, thank you very nice. i shopped quite a lot, but that one thing i wanted, couldn't be found. i sedihh :( NIKE SLIPPERS. mummy say buy at Madrid tapi tade ponn. sadness. takpe, singapore ader. and i da kayer sikett. HAHAHAHA! okay only WF♥ knows. hahahah!

my nose is irritating and i wna sleep. saya rindu my bilikkk. ishh, but saya rindu awak more ;D *winkk.

when there's still love, there's no relationship that can not be saved, unless there's a third party. so, cheer up aye. everything will be fine. you love her, she loves you. soon, you'll live happily ever after with her, and i? i'll be happy too, because all that matters to me is your happiness ;D selamat malam cinta.

2010-05-19T17:37:00.003+08:00

Irah came by before work cos i told her i was bored. sweet ;D

tonight, i'm off to Madrid. ishh, a part of me wants to go, a part of me don't wna leave my WF ♥

to dearest WF ♥, please takecare of yourself aye.
yang sepatutnya go to school, PLEASE GO OKAY. don't skip-skip :P nih part confirm ade orang terase! :P hahahaha! i love you!
adik don't sedih okay, i'll never forget you. and i'm only going for few days dear, nak lupe ape. bukan nak migrate sane. ishh. teringat-ingat ade laa. aww, kakak kau sweet, aku tawuuu. HAHAHA!
MAT, KAU TAKMO EHH DATE NGAN ORANG LAIN. AKU TAK RELA. LAGI-LAGI DENGAN........ tapi kalau setakat dijemput balik kerja, can. for safety reasons ajer! :P
okay da, i love korang so much. don't forget me, but don't remember me. nanti rindu, my cigg tak light-light, and my eyelashes slalu fall off ajer. HAHAHAHAH!

WH ♥, i nak date ngan u after i balik Madrid. i tak kesaa. i sayang u bby. mwahh ♥

awak, i've loved you for exactly 6 months today. hehh. aye, takecare of yourself aye. ♥
yang terase takmo feeling-feeling oteyy, but maybe it's for you ;D i already miss you. ishh. sayang kau bacen!

2010-05-19T00:00:00.002+08:00

i'm tired. i swear. had a great day today, really ;D

met WF ♥, met WH ♥, met Syah and met.. you ♥♥. hehh.

terima kasih cinta.

exactly six months ago, i fell in love with you.

19th.

2010-05-17T03:07:00.000+08:00

Empty Promises

just hang up the phone with Slenger. sleepy, and want to sleep. working tomorrow. goodnight people.

19th is nearing.
love, my ecstacy.

2010-05-15T23:25:00.003+08:00

tday, last minute plan to watch soccer with Maya and Fiq. supposed to work but body ache sumpah cannot take it. tapi merayap aku blehh. hahahahha, merayap tak pakai banyak muscle. CEHH!
anw, Lina tagged along ;D after soccer, sent her home while Fiq accompanied Maya to her aunt's place. awak, saya da tawu awak stay mane :P hehehhe!
then met up with Fiq at Causeway Point and then lepak at titanic awhile. talked about alot of things, and the past with the people we love ;D how we love them and all, how me met. okay next! hahahah!

anw, i just reached home. lambat kan? padahal left woodlands at around 9pm. ishh, i took the long route home. hehehe!

aye, want bathe and then.. rest.
takecare!

"we were so good together,
before she came into the picture.
now, i'm suffering,are you?"

2010-05-14T22:43:00.002+08:00

C'mon babe can't our love be revived
Bring it back and we gon' make it right.

last night was the best night after so long ;D
you never fail to cheer me up after a bad day.
i love you, and i miss you so much.
i'm sorry, i still do.

hey hey awak, da dpat bike, saya first girl kan? ;D
heheheh, takmo break promise okay! pfft.

awak butch, saya tak suka.
i'm sorry.

let's play a game here, girl.
we go out, we have fun.
we hold hands and kiss on the lips.
we text every minute and on the phone every night.

the one who falls in love first, loses.
and the game ends ;D

"I can't stop thinkin abt u"

2010-05-13T18:36:00.003+08:00

this is how daddy's car looks like now :(
second brother and i were on our way home, and at his favourite corner, while he was turning, he lose control and then the next thing i know, we hit a huge tree and i couldn't speak. shock, terrified, trauma, and breathless, and i tried to speak but i couldn't.
the impact was so bad, and both our airbags burst.
the headlight infront came off, like totally, and landed half a metre away.
the whole headlight. it's like, you can bring it back for souvenir. hehh.

abang, cheer up okay. don't blame yourself. i'm fine (:
you're still my #1 racer forever.
i love you so much.

okay so now i've decided not to go to the hospital.
i'm not gna let the doctor put a needle into my body and take away my blood.
yes, aku takot jarum, abeh asal? :P hahaha!
but my head is in pain, and there was blood and it's swollen.
and i can't breathe in deeply because my chest hurts.
my neck and chest hurts whenever i wna turn or move.
and i have bruises on my body.
cb, pain bodoh. ishh.
sungguh tak handsome!

but i had the best experience, and i'm still shock.
i'm afraid to drive now, how? help!
and i hope the toyota wish will be fine.
it's gna cost daddy thousands, hmm.

will post more pichas when i get them from first brother.

mummy's doctor advised her not to go to Madrid. but she wants to go cos it's a once in a lifetime thingy, so now we don't know what to do. and worst, we've paid for the tickets and everything.

okay now my head hurts so much, my chest too.
i don't think i should tell the parents.
i hope abang's fine. he's on his way to the hospital to get himself a checkup on his hand, it was badly injured. but no bleeding, so we're afraid it's internal.
cb, aku sayang abang aku la weii.

i wna sleep. i hope my chest pain will be just for now, and my head will be fine when i wake up (:
good night, ape-ape texting-texting.

"You're always in my heart. My only princess."

2010-05-12T22:11:00.001+08:00

TIRED. VERY TIRED. SLEEPY. VERY SLEEPY.
TOMORROW, GOING HOSPITAL. SIGH :(

awak da sihat? nak bubur? *winkk

2010-05-12T01:18:00.001+08:00

awaaaaaaaaaakkkk, get well soon okay!
don't forget to eat your meds, and rest manymany oteeyy.
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

2010-05-11T10:38:00.003+08:00

i dreamt that we were still together, doing whatever we used to do together. spending time together. watching movies together. doing assignments together. hanging out together. shop together.

i woke up in tears because i realised to do things together again, i need to get her back.

i miss you, i miss us.

yesterday, today, and in days to come, i'll love you forever.
and forever means for eternity.

2010-05-10T23:16:00.003+08:00

okay i'm shagged. ishh, and tomorrow will be going Bukit Panjang, meeting WF ♥ sesungguhnya, sungguh jauh. hahahahha! okay nonsense. yang penting tadi, kite 7 beranak pergi queensway dengan busu, nak buat baju kendarat. tapi yang balik rumah cume 5 beranak ajer. lagi dua balik rumah lain. sedihh kan? takpe, kite faham (: and Fiq, mciam amek laughing gas. hahahahha! high semaciam kite sumer lepas dpat makan KFC. muahaha!

anw, a declaration here, i'm not gonna date anyone new. i'm gna stay single and unavailable okay. no more dates, no more flings, no more hurting girls ;D
hati saya hanya untuk awak seorang, dan akan tetap untuk awak walaupun awak tak mungkin akan kembali. saya sayang awak, lebih dari segalanya. dan untuk kebahagiaan awak, apa pun saya akan lakukan.

and Adik, cheer up okay. like i've told you, if we love someone, it doesn't mean we have to be with that someone. loving someone means doing whatever it takes to make her happy, even though it means sacrificing our feelings, and be happy for her, even though her happiness is not with you. love is being happy, seeing the person you love, happy.

ishh, saya da lamer plan nak belikan awak untuk birthday awak, tapi awak da beli. sedihh :(

2010-05-10T11:37:00.002+08:00

i'm damn sleepy can? i slept at 7am after finally deciding to eat panadol. ishh, susah dapat tuu aku makan ubat. anw, i wna sleep, but i'm afraid i can't wake up in time to meet Woodlands Family ♥ accompanied tambi whole night. sigh, i hope you're fine dear. be strong, i'm here for you.

anw, awak cabar saya ke? are you daring me to take back what was rightfully mine? don't my dear, don't. because later, you'll be crying so badly, like as if your bestfriend died. and if i want to make your name bad, i can do it anytime. you know i can *winkk.

2010-05-09T19:22:00.002+08:00

aper yang kau banggakan sangat?
bekas aku tuuuuuu..
sisa baki aku ;D
aper orang kate.. been there, done that?
UHHUH ;D

2010-05-09T00:32:00.001+08:00

hi budak kecik, i love your girlfriend, how? ♥

2010-05-08T00:00:00.000+08:00

8th. fcuk.
3 months ago..

2010-05-07T23:37:00.002+08:00

today's surprise was a success ;) thanks to Woodlands Family ♥ for making it a success (: met the girls and butches (HAHA!) at 1.30pm supposedly. but some came late EH. hahahah! and so we waited for birthday girl to arrive (: then proceed to sheesha and played games. left the place at 10pm and home sweet home by 11.30pm. now i wna go bathe, and i have no pichas at all. HEHH.
OKAY GOODNIGHT.

22042010

"so what are we? who are you to me?
i am whoever you want me to be.
i want you to be my girlfriend.
then i'm your girlfriend (:"

06052010

"Sorry if i seem different.. And i'm sorry i'm letting you go........"

you gave up..

HAPPY SEVENTH, ♥

2010-05-07T00:00:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SCANDALLOVE.
YOU'RE 18 ALREADY, AND I HOPE YOU'RE AS MATURED AS YOUR AGE.
THINK OF YOUR FUTURE AITE, AND YOUR FAMILY.
AND YOU'RE PRACTICALLY LEGAL FOR ALMOST EVERYTHING.
BUT DON'T OVERUSE IT.
I LOVE YOU, TAKECARE ♥

happy seventh♥

2010-05-06T00:56:00.002+08:00

"My WW, i harap you tak marah kat i pasal i da lama tak jumpa you. ;(
ive been a bad WH. And i promise i jumpe you soon kay. :)))"

My WH, i'm not mad at you sayang. i just miss you (: but it's okay. i understand you need to concentrate on studies (: finish up this course aye dear, and with great results!
just know that i'm a text away if you need to talk okay.
i ♥ you, alot!

2010-05-05T23:37:00.002+08:00

yesterday, after visiting an, who kicks me many many times, we walked around Novena, and i'm eyeing this Nike Slippers, the black and white. then we proceed to Yew Tee to go to the stadium to watch Maya's brother's game. KECOH aku jadi commentator. LOL! abeh no commentator, i become one la. HAHAHAHA! *WINK hahahahaha!

okay and then today, we finally went home! rindu rumah ogay! ishh, feels so long since we went home (: but i left soon to go Sengkang (: now i'm home sweet home, nak mandi (:

okay will upload kite pichas soon (: goodnight people ♥

2010-05-05T23:06:00.003+08:00

things have been going well with love. no arguments, no fights, no misunderstandings.
if only this will last, i hope (:

a dream turned nightmare.

2010-05-05T09:40:00.004+08:00

"she fetched me from work, brought me to a luxurious place for dinner, and then we went for a walk in a park, before we stopped at this junction that seemed to have flickering lights on just up ahead. we walked abit further, and i saw many candles lit up and in a form of a heartshape. she turned to me, looked into my eyes, and said, "love, will you be my girlfriend?" and then we made it official. she became the sweetest love one could ask for. and in return, i stayed faithful even though my eyes wander about. couple of arguments, but one party will give in. people thought we would last. we thought we would last. we seemed so in love with each other, and nothing else matters. like even though we have objections from the family, we would try to be together. but everyone has her own secrets, don't they?

she left. i died."

a dream turned nightmare, with you becoming the main character.
even in dreams, you left.

2010-05-04T23:45:00.001+08:00

"i don't wna be with you,
i wna be with her.
if i'm not with her,
then i wna be alone. "

2010-05-04T10:08:00.002+08:00

i miss love. like really. the last we met was Friday. and the next we'll be meeting will be.. Thursday? she's busy working. sigh. i want go to her workplace and surprise her! hahahahah! yea, maybe i should.

oh, we dint end (: she dint want to.

anw, i should go get ready. meeting my Mat at woodlands to go TTSH.
dearest friend, be strong okay. you're gna pull this through (: stay strong!

2010-05-03T23:32:00.001+08:00

stargazing. reminds me of you. i miss you. no other intentions. no other meanings.
0712 ♥

2010-05-03T20:15:00.002+08:00

everyday, without fail, we'll argue. everyday, without fail.. we'll hurt each other.
do you know, i always try my best to give in to you, and you always take advantage of it.
and the last resort, i lied to not argue with you. i hate to lie, because i learnt from my past, that lying will cause someone to lose trust. but i had to, because whenever i told you the truth, we ended up arguing. fatigue.

just when i'm trying to love you, just when i'm trying to give you my heart, you had to reach my patience level with your insecurities. your insecurities are causing something beautiful to shatter. i'm not one to give up easily, especially relationships.. but once my level of fatigueness reaches its limit, i don't have the strength to stay. maybe it's my fault, for not loving you with all my heart, but if only you try to win my heart, instead of what you've been doing all this while, then maybe i could fall.

but it all has to end. 22042010 has to end.

22042010 - 03052010

2010-05-02T22:54:00.003+08:00

hello world, i had a great day today. met my Mat, Maya, Sakina, An and Eerah at BnS and then proceed to RC. we reached same time as Adik and Busu. then proceed to Marina Barrage to fly kite. kecohh, and susah. LOL! and then head to Boon Keng to have our Dunch. (dinner plus lunch) baikk, nasi goreng ikan bilis. WOOTS~ and then to East Coast. play ball, FUN! hahaha, one touch okay! kecohh. and then go OCH. they saw.. sesungguhnya, aku tak nampak ape-ape. adoii. bagos la jgak. and then they sent me home first ;D

okay the way i blog is so pathetic, because i'm tired. ishh. but i had fun, because i love sitting in the bonnet. HAHAHAHA! first, sat with Maya. and then sat with My Mat. last part lepak. baring dalam bonnet. HAHAHAHA! yea, it's big.

and no, i dint go Malaysia. now let fate decide what's gna happen.

takecare readers.

oh, at Marina Barrage, i asked this girl to be my girlfriend. i just got rejected ;(
she's my MAT! grr. hahahahha!

http://blogconfession.tumblr.com/ - 2793

2010-05-02T09:42:00.001+08:00

I don’t want our relationship back, I want our friendship back. I don’t understand, you cried and practically begged for us to stay friends. And that’s what I wanted too because I figured I didn’t make a good girlfriend but I was going to be the best friend you never had, and the next thing I knew you were gone. You, your promises, your embraces, your jokes, everything. Every time I got close to figuring out why, you would tell me to go away, that I was pissing you off… So I left. I didn’t leave because I fell out of love with you. It’s quite the opposite. I left you alone because I love you, I want to make you happy. I still want to make you happy. I miss you. I need you, I admit it. I give up. I don’t want to lie anymore and say I don’t. I miss everything about you, but you’re happy with someone else. You’ve forgotten me. But I still hope you get the best out of life, even if it’s not with me. But if you are ever wondering if I miss you, the answer is yes, if I think about you, the answer is all the time, and if I still love you, the answer is deeply and truly enough for you to go off and find the love you deserve without me in the way. I know in my heart of hearts I probably won’t ever speak to you again, but please know I never meant to hurt you. All I ever wanted was to give you the right thing…and letting you go is the right choice.

2010-05-01T23:03:00.002+08:00

taken at Sungei Buloh something's toilet (: i like the pichas.

anw, tomorrow going Marina Barrage with Woodlands Family ♥
love is not tagging along because.. sigh. i don't know la.

love, learn to trust me. learn to trust that i will never fall in love again with her. she's my past, a history. i don't have feelings for her anymore, none at all. trust me, please.
i don't know how else to assure you, that i'm so over her. she's just a friend, a part of my family. that's all. not more. sigh.

Ku Bertanya - Adam

2010-05-01T00:44:00.000+08:00

Adakah diriku kau tak perlu lagi
Adakah cintaku kau tak perlu lagi
Adakah dirimu dah berubah hati terhadap diriku

Adakah insan lain bertakhta di hatimu
Hinggakan dirimu mengubah cintamu
Manakah janjimu yang kau beri dulu kepada diriku

Kau pernah berkata cintamu adalah selama-lamanya
Bulan menjadi saksi pada malam itu
Kau kata kau cinta

Sayangku dengarlah rintihan hatiku
Ingin kau kembali seperti dahulu
Kenangan di jiwa membuat ku rindu kepada dirimu

Kau pernah berkata cintamu adalah selama-lamanya
Bulan menjadi saksi pada malam itu
Kau kata kau cinta

Kiranya diriku kau tak perlu lagi
Simpanlah kenangan cinta kita di hati
Walaupun sukar, ku akur kali ini
Biarlah ku pergi

Maafkanlah ku bertanya

2010-04-30T22:44:00.002+08:00

LIKE FINALLY, AFTER A MONTH, I MET SCANDALLOVE. LIKE CB! SO LONG SIA. ISHH. RINDU KAU BODOHH. HAHAHHAA!!!

anw, waiting for love to come and pass me my phone. ishh, cnot make it sia without my phone. accidentally left my phone with her, i guess she'll be checking my inbox? adoii. luckily last night i scanned through and delete them (: but there are still.. adoii. takpe ahh. can explain. I LOVE YOU BACEN. hahahhaha!

OKAY DA I TIRED (:

2010-04-29T10:24:00.000+08:00

A MISTAKE MADE CAN NEVER BE UNDONE.
SIGH, I'M SORRY. IT'S A MISTAKE.

2010-04-28T23:40:00.002+08:00

this is the truth of my day today okay love.

after my thing, i went to Marsiling, Adik's house. met my Mat and Exgirlf. then we proceed to Adik's new place and had our lunch before we start cleaning the house. wipe the cabinets and grills, mop the floor, paint the wall. then Fiq and Doda, An and Sakina came. my Mat and Exgirlf kept laughing at me okay, da mciam amek laughing gas okay. hahahaha! just looking at each other's faces can make us keep laughing. hahahaha! lagi-lagi tu due! tengok muke aku ajer nak laugh! ishhh. idontknowwhy! grr. and then at 8pm went down for soccer and takraw. sesungguhnya, i don't like takraw. sakit bodohhh. grr, mati tanak!

and then went back to Adik's old house to take my handphone. hehehehe! I ACCIDENTALLY LEFT IT THERE. ishh, tak ubah-ubah perangai yang nihh. LOL! then head to Yishun to meet love for awhile because she missed me. aww, mane nak dpat mataeh mciam aku? kau ckap rindu, terus aku turon jumpe. hehehehe! sorry love for lying. i just don't want you to get angry if i told you the truth. sigh. my fault. i'm sorry.

and then headed home.

have you ever made a mistake, twice? to the same person? what would you do after the second time?

2010-04-28T08:18:00.000+08:00

FCUKING NIGHT.

without trust, we're going nowhere, love.

2010-04-27T22:07:00.002+08:00

hehh, the day started out so early in the morning. so tired. after that, i walked at Pasir Ris interchange and i see many pretty Siglap girls around 1pm. baby got mad at me for that. -.- suke hati kau. aku malas nak pujuk. setakat tengok ajer, kau nak besar kan cerite. whatever (: da bis majok, bilang kay (;
and then we spent our time at home. hehehehe! menjeng sia aku ketawe. okay NEXT.

mummy and daddy ajak go madrid, spain in may. nak go or not? hmm.. mciam fun, tapi mciam tak interested jgak. adoii. PERGI AJER LA EH? rindu baby how? HAHAHAHA! takpe, by the time, da tade pape ngan die. HAHAHAHHAHA! gurau ajer. ohwells, i learn that girls don't stay. so yea ;) but i'm sure gna miss my friends. friends.. sigh.

okay da takecare!

rindu.. sigh.
have fun in life. hope we won't bump into each other.
life goes on with or without me.

2010-04-27T00:18:00.002+08:00

i'm in a spot. i'm in the middle, stuck.
on one hand, i miss you, so much. but i was in a situation. and truth is, whenever you're with her, i just don't wna take your time. i want you to spend your time with her. and it makes me sad and guilty, with what's happening. sigh. i'm sorry friend, i'll see you on wednesday.

i'm tired. i wna talk to love and then go sleep. takecare. sigh.

2010-04-26T01:34:00.003+08:00

baby, don't cry. i'm back (: i miss you so much too. and i love you too. i'm yours okay? and i've been yours for months, nearly a year. we separated to get closer to each other, to realise we need each other, and other girls were just a rebound for us. i love you, you love me. that's all that matters ;)

I'M HOME (: AND I MISS MY FAMILY, AND MY WOODLANDS FAMILY, AND MY.. TTMS. HAHAHAHAHA!

i miss exgirlf. maya, can't wait for 12th May ;)
i miss my Minah. you dint flirt around kan? HAHAHAHA!
i miss adik. sorry tak reply message. texted too many till my bill gna explode. sorry adik!
i miss woodlands family. adoii, i wanted to be there tadi :( so sedihh. takpe, see u guys soon.

and i miss baby the most ♥♥

tomorrow ade job interview! adoii. so tired. how many jobs do i need? hehh. cashier, stalker.. HAHAHAHAHA!! okay da only some people understand ;)
ohhhh okay nak unpack and charge my ppaid phone. takecare people ;)

2010-04-22T21:18:00.003+08:00

Nur Syahirah has been accompanying me two days straight. thanks for your time sweetheart. and then and then, Nur Syahirah has also been a pain in the ass for always teasing me. tskkk, please ehh. hahahaha! she always laugh at whatever i did. she says i'm a bimbo. bodohh kau. i'm not! HAHAHAHA! Nur Syahirah slenger dan bacen! pfft. and Nur Syahirah blanjer saya ice cream kat macd! saya sukerr! thank you awak ♥♥

okay enough of her. hehh. i have a job interview this monday. cb. sumpah aku penat lepas balik KL. adoii. nehhmind, endure. know what? i have yet to finish packing. ishh.

and next week, i wna meet Azillah :( i rindu you banyakbanyak. i'll fetch you at school okay! or your attachment place. i don't care. sanggup. wait for my text. when i balik KL, i'll text you. takecare ♥

haaa, i wna go pack. aite people. don't miss me too much. ahahaha!
and now, baby will say.. "feelingfeeling hotstuff"
HAHAHAHA! tetap you sayang! DA BYE HARIMAU! ♥♥♥

2010-04-21T23:00:00.002+08:00

to my dearest Family, i hope i've made you all happy by treating her as a friend, even though she said she wanted me to hate her. but i know you guys miss her and want her back. and if i can't treat her as a friend, then it's gna be weird. i'm doing this for you guys (: but it's all up to her. i've done my best, be proud of me ogay?! HEHEHE! anw anw, i'm so gna miss you guys. see ya'll next week. good luck for the match this Sunday aye (:

TAKE CARE KORANG. MWAHH ♥

i'm gna come back a free girl, with no problems (: leaving everything behind, starting afresh. no more girls, no more unwanted problems.

i haven't eaten the whole day! urghh. wanted to eat with Syah but my Mat and my Exgirlf ask me to come BB asap. cheebs. kesian Nur Syahirah Bte..... hahahahah! amekk kau. name penuh. but thanks for accompanying me. i know it was boring to sit throughout the period doing nothing. hehehehe! sayang kau bacen! HAHAAHA! i'm so sorry i couldn't have lunch with you. next time okay (:

2010-04-20T23:34:00.004+08:00

okay i've got something to rant about to a certain someone.

why are you putting the blame on me? that your absence is because i'm treating you like a stranger, like i hate you, like you're not my friend.
firstly, who's the one who told me to hate her?
secondly, who's the one who told me to fcuk off from her life?
thirdly, trust me, perasaan saya untuk awak da tade. sikit pon tade. because you're not the girl i fall in love with. you're so different. now, i don't love you.

so am i to blame, for treating you like i hate you? why tell someone that your absence is because of me? why dint you tell that someone that i treat you like that because YOU TOLD ME TO HATE YOU?! YOU TOLD ME TO FCUK OFF?! WHY LEAVE OUT ALL THAT FCUKING FACTS, AND MAKE ME THE BAD GUY HERE?!
come on ehh, don't twist the fact here.
i don't know you, so why should i be nice to you?
i'm supposed to hate you right? siape yang mintak dibenci?! saya ke awak?!

fcuuuukkkk, berbual takmo belit-belit okay. come down then. trust me, i can face you because i don't have any feelings for you at all. but can you?

and what's so hard about telling me the reason?
the reason is.. "i fell in love with another girl, that's why i stopped loving you"
SUSAH SANGAT KE?! BE A MAN AH. you stopped loving me because you fell in love with another girl. don't deny that fact. when a person fall in love with someone else, their feelings for the current one fades, trust me. because i have feelings too -.- and then ten days after we broke up, you got attached to her. DON'T TELL ME FEELINGS GROW WITHIN THAT TEN DAYS -.-

it hurts to hear, even though i don't love you anymore. because you're like blaming me. and then you say you forgive me for treating you like that. WHAT?! YOU WANTED ME TO TREAT YOU LIKE THAT. YOU WANTED ME TO HATE YOU. I'M GRANTING YOUR WISH.

NOW TELL ME EXACTLY, WHAT DO YOU WANT FROM ME?!
HOW DO YOU WANT ME TO TREAT YOU?!
SAYANG? SALAH SAYA.
BENCI? SALAH SAYA JGAK.
ANGGAP SEBAGAI KAWAN? AWAK SURO SAYA FCUK OFF.
AWAK NAK APE SEBENARNYA?!

suke hati awak la nak buat ape, nak ckap ape. i'm used to getting hurt by you. i'm so immune to it. nak salahkan saya yang menyebabkan awak tak turon lepak, suke hati awak la. nak salahkan saya sebab tak anggap awak sebagai kawan, suke hati awak la. tapi tolong jangan rasa yang saya masih sayang awak, sebab sesungguhnya, saya tak lagi mencintai awak.

and if you think i'm still waiting for you, get over it. because i'm not. awak kan nak last long dengan mataeh awak. awak kan nak buat die your last. i don't have the time to wait for you. i have other girls waiting for me to love them. so yea, get over the fact that i'm still waiting for you -.-

2010-04-20T10:39:00.003+08:00

HI BUDAK KECIK ♥
AWAK DELETE SAYA KAT FACEBOOK KE?
KENAPE? AWAK TAKOT?
AWAK ADER BUAT SALAH KE?
HAHAHAHAHHA, KENTAL LA AWAK.
DULU, AWAK YANG ADD SAYA.
TAGGED, FACEBOOK.. KIRE STEP GEREK AH?
HEHH, _|_
DASAR BUDAK KECIK ♥
TAK PUAS HATI, JUMPE OGAY (:
TAWU LA BUDAKBUDAK AWAK FIERCE, TAPI SUMPAH, TAK TAKOT (:
TAPI AWAK NAK JUMPE SAYA? MANE AWAK BERANI KAAAN.

kecik-kecik rosakkan relationship orang.. da besar rosakkan rumah tangga orang ogay? ;D
GET A LIFE, PLEASE (:

semoga kekal ke akhir hayat yerr.
been there, and done that (;

takmo step malu dengan WH aku.
pecaahhhx.

2010-04-19T12:54:00.003+08:00

HEY BUDAK KECIK, DON'T DO ANYTHING STUPID OKAY. DON'T PLAY WITH FIRE. DON'T HURT HER. YOU WANTED HER SO BADLY, YOU HAD TO TAKE HER AWAY FROM ME. NOW THAT I LET YOU HAVE HER, YOU BETTER BE GOOD. DON'T FCUKING FLIRT AROUND. DON'T EVER HURT HER. I LET YOU OFF ONCE, BECAUSE I WANT HER TO BE HAPPY, BUT DON'T PUSH IT. DON'T. TAKE GOOD CARE OF HER, BECAUSE YOU WON THE BATTLE. YOU TOOK HER AWAY FROM ME, SO NOW YOU BETTER TREAT HER GOOD. DON'T LET WHAT HAPPENED YESTERDAY, HAPPENED AGAIN.
DON'T MAKE ME FIND YOU, LITTLE GIRL.

2010-04-19T00:00:00.001+08:00

Happy supposedly 5th, ♥
for all we went through, i love you for being by my side always.
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2010-04-18T23:19:00.002+08:00

met my minah at CWP. she was laaaatee! then proceed to RC and had our lunch. oitts, member tak go work. tsktskkk. and then the rest started to come. lepak and Reena and her friends came along. banyak oii. ribut. and then and theeenn, at night, when we were planning to move, there were some unsettled issue. hmm, kecohh. adoii. left at 9.30pm, thought of surprising NIA, but.. adoii.

ANW, few more minutes.. if only.. 5 months ago, there weren't any interference.. i might be happily in love with you. oh wells.

and to my dearest woodlands family, sayangS oii, STOP IT EHH KORANG. adoii, tak habis-habis kacau saya dengan orang. kat ITE BB lain, kat RC lain.. phobia la saya. kalau kena dengan femme, okay jgak. HAHAHAHA! OKAY DA DIAM. SAYANG KORANG. MWAHH!